twilight saga-new moon

went for movie at 1u last saturday with mummy and bro...

twilight saga-new moon...

actually wanted to go with my boy but he wasnt here...

thats why...

but i still prefer the previous episod...

this episod is showing more on their relation.

the end of the movie reminded me a lot of things..

especially when Edward asked Bella to wait for him for 5 years...

actually this movie is more suitable for couples...

but i dont have anyone to accompany me,so i asked mummy to go with me...

she kept complained that the story was too slow motion...

kept telling that boring...

haha~

after movie,went for lunch-Pizza hut...

then shopping hour!!!

i bought a shirt for myself...

i wanted to buy a pair of shoes but we need to get back home at 4...

mummy bought 2 FILA shirts...70% discount...quite worth...

i still remembered the 1st time she went to the same shop...

it was so crowded...

and she disappeared in front of us in 3 seconds...

when i found her,she was searching her shirts in auntie gang...

so horrible...!

before we went home,i went to jusco to look for a bag...

mummy promised me to buy it for me as my birthday gift...

but i counldnt find it...

fine...

went to Kepong Jusco at night...

had dinner at there...

then try to look for the bag...

finally,i found 'u'...

and i bought it...

happy~

Carlo Rino bag...

i love Carlo Rino products lately...

latest me~

looking forward for the day u watch the movie with me...

up and down

i feel u walk beside me ,i know i'll see u again
tonight,i becomes a silly girl again
my tears drop for another time...
i dunno why i am so confused at this moment
i know i think too much which will make us become worse...
but when the time passed day by day,i only feel that u are one step futher from me again
wondering whether anyone of us changed?
u or me?
i felt that i am no longer important for u...
there are many things that u never pay attention on...
those are the things that make us feel strange...
i dunno how can i explain to u eventhough u ask me
feel it urself...sincerely...
u changed me and when i already get used to it,something changed and i forced to change
my god...!
wish everything will goes fine like b4...
i dun mind to give up everything...
just wish to have life like b4...
happy us...always together
when i was sad...cried in ur ams
naughty us...always do something funny
lovely u...always protect me from hurt
pity me...always bullied by u...
ii only wish to have whatt i used to have b4...
thats all...:(

HapPy sWe3t 18

finally,i am 18 ...!!!

yuhooo~

yesterday was my birthday...

at first,dad decided to buy KFC and have a simple celebration at my grandma's house...

but received aunt's call at last minute said that she wont able to come bcoz she has dinner...

so,postpone to Sunday=today afternoon.

yesterday,i went for second driving lesson...

damn tired although i've learned it b4...

after that went back home and slept for 2 hours...

at night,went for dinner with my family...

daddy brought us to Desapark city to have our dinner...

its a French restaurant...

it was a nice place...

it is facing to the lake and the night view was so nice.

the food was nice too...

i found the benefit of learning cooking class...

haha...

coz i could understand the ingredient stated in the menu...

my dishes:Carbonara

mummy's

my bro

after dinner went to selayang mall to buy mouse and earphone...

coz daddy bought a wireless modem...

so i can use my laptop already...at anytime i want...

reached home at 10 something and get ready to chat with dear...

but i told him that i wont be able to online for 1 week bcoz need to install the modem...

at last only i realized that i was cheated by my bro...

it only takes few minute to finish...

stupid~

played fb until 12am...

i sent him some msg on msn...

he reply me right after i sent the msg...

i was so happy coz i thought he wont be online...

we chat or a while

he sent me a photo and told me something which really surprise me...

he said he made a party for me over there...

although i wasnt there,but i can feel the happiness and the situation of the party..

i was soooooooo surprise...

i couldnt believe that he did that for me...

how good if u were here with me....?!

thank u so much my dear...

what u have done for me is the best memory for my birthday...
and u also gave me the best gift...

thats all i wanted the most...

thank u...:-*

Asheghetam...

this was the cake from dear...

i use it as my wallpaper

love it so much

***by the way,thanks for my friends and those who

sent me the wishes on fb and sms...

thank guys...

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and today...

had a very simple celebration at grandma's house...

received many 'ang pao' ...

haha....

got money to shopping ady...

haha...

my birthday cake from family...

just now went for dinner with my uncles and aunts...

they treat me as my birthday present...

thank them so much...coz it wasnt cheap...

quite expensive...

paiseh...

thats all for my birthday celebrations...

hope my wishes will come true and have a happy birthday...

thanks again guys...

and of course my boy for giving me an unforgettable memory...

good night...sweet dream...

relax~peace

hey...
its a long time that i haven update my blog due to assignment and exams...
becoz this sem is a short sem and its only 2 months...
so,everything have to rush...
finally having holiday now...
thank God..
i really need rest...
this sem...for me i dont really like it...
although food studies practical class is quite fun but another subject made me lose my temper.
assignment...like rubbish + group member problem...
thats enough to make me crazy...
somemore the lecturer kept asked us to see her and talk about the problem
hell! i dont think there is anything to explain anymore...
my mood spoiled becoz of this matter.
nonsense...

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today is my last day for this sem = last exam day = food studies practical exam
it was full of fun..
i was too excited b4 the exam...
my station was in the cold kitchen and only me and Yuki are there
so it was quite peace and i could concentrate on my works..
my dessert >>> chocolate mousse...
very successful coz it wasnt too thick...:D
chickpeas salad and fillet as main course.
luckily i could finish b4 1.30pm...
i dont know why i put my dishes at the 1st table..
and an indian lecturer came and sit at my place
then only i know he is the judge for my dishes.
my god...
he asked me so many question that i dunno how to answer...
he was so strict...
i lose most of my marks becoz of him...
or maybe my dishes wasnt delicious at all...:(
whatever...
i aim A for this subject,i hope i can get it.

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last week,went to my cousin sis's college.
she is going to graduate on this coming January
she is taking fashion design course.
so i went to be her model...:D
i met her friends from high sku...
they are so nice and of course leng lui...
its actually a good experience for me:)
i loves to stay infront of camera.
i wish i could do something to make my life become busy
then i wont always think about the thing which will make me sad

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i am out of my mood right now...
i feel the only thing that i want being far and far away from me
in a short time...
why its like u always forget what did u told me?
and i should accept the decision u made????
i am selfish but i really dont want to be in this situation anymore...!!!!

recently

recently,i am busy with my study...
this semester is a short semester...
only 2 months...
and 3 weeks were gone...
gosh...
i feel stressful...
and few days ago we started to cook something in food studies practical class...
we cooked stock...
its a base for food...
this was the 1st time for me to cut the chicken ...
yiak~
it was so geli.....
after that,put all the ingredients and boil it...
thats nothing special bcoz the procedure was almost same for both of the stock...
and yesterday we learned about sauce...
we cooked 3 sauces...
1st sauce is 'Bechamel' sauce which is normally use for pasta...
and the 2nd sauce is supreme sauce...
after we made both of the sauces,we started to try the taste of our sauces...
and our chef cooked some fish and fillet for us...

haha

so good....
while waiting for chef to prepare his sauce
we juz fool around...
the sauce needs some wine to improve its flavor...
1 of our classmate has a bottle of wine in his car and he donates his wine ...
haha...
u guess what we do after he opened the bottle???
7 of us finished a bottle of wine during class...
my face was red like an apple...:D
after the class we ate the chicken cooked by chef ...
with the sauce....
it was so perfect...
we sat with few of our lecturers and chat for awhile...

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and today,

we learned about soup...
vegetable soup with pasta inside there...



and the soup we wanted to learn the most......


mushroom soup

and the last one


leek and potato soup

i am killing myself to remember all the steps
i am going to cook for someone :-*

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obviously,
im not in a good mood these day.
my study,the distance,the feeling of missing u...
i feel so stress bcoz of these things...
and yesterday...
my mum told me something and made me really lose my temper...
who u all think u are???
I am killing myself to tolerate the distance and study hard...
I dont even dare to cry in front of u all when i am sad...
I am just waiting for what I want...
I dont need comments from u all...
I know what am I doing!!!!
no matter what will happen in the future,it's my problem...
keep ur mouth shut...
bcoz u all are elder than me and I respect u all ,thats y i keep quiet...
dont force me to be cruel...
last 2 week,i got my result for last semester...
i got 3A,1B...
its all bcoz of 1 of ur sentence...
i did my revision everyday
and i did it,i did what I've promised u and u are the only one who will appreciate what I've done..
I am happy bcoz u are happy bcoz of me,and i really made u proud of me...
I will keep it up til I get the best result...
thank you dear...

I'm already there

He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her sayI love you one more time
But when he heard the sound of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
Said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I knowI'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there

She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll bein your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the lightand close your eyes

Oh I’m already there
Don’t make a sound
I’m the beat in your heart
I’m the moonlight shining down
I’m the whisper in the wind
And I’ll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I’m already there

We may be a thousand miles apart
But I’ll be with you wherever you are

new sem new subject new life

2day i started my 2nd semester ...
damn boring coz our classs has divided into 2 groups...
that means 1 group only has 8 person...
how are we going to concentrate in class???
im sure it will be too too too boring and sleepy...
food studies theory class only 5 students attended the class...
i wanted to sleep but the lecturer was looking at me...
and the morning class has cancelled....
so we have to stay in the college until 2pm for the last class...
holy shit..
3 hours....
then me,Chin and Yen Pin went to centerpoint ...
bought waffer as my breakfast..
went to Twins Baby for awhile...
met Jimmy...
he kept asking me to go Iran and calling me Iran...
haha....
he is damn funny...
i dont feel like working anymore...
lazy + dear and mummy asked me to concentrate on my study ...
i think i'll listen to them...
i always listen to them...:D

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today i saw someone when i had my lunch at MCD...
i dunno how to describe my feeling...
i can say that is hate...
i dun even want to look at him...
as my boy ordered me not to talk to him...
i was thinking why he can stay here and do whatever he likes...
and i should being apart with my boy...
it shouldnt be like this...
the world is upside down...
wrong can be right and right can be wrong...
the world is gonna end...

my day out during Raya

last week,i had 2 days holiday during Raya...
as u know i dun have any entertainment...
so i went for movie with my family at 1u >>>"Final Destination"...
the movie wasnt as nice as what i expected...
the story was short and the story was juz similar with the previous episods..
nothing special...
we reached there at about 4pm
walked around the mall...
i saw something which really attract my attention...
i saw DKNY perfume...
which are 4 small bottles in a package with different smell
i love things which is small and cute...
but after i tried all of them,only the 1st bottle suits me...
so i didnt buy...
then went to Padini (my favourite shop) ...
bought a jacket...
when i was searching for my size ,a guy was looking at me in a strange way...
at last i realized he is the staff in that shop...
he wanted to help me ...haha
after the movie we straight away went home...
the next day...
guess where did i went...
1u again...
hahahaha...
i loves 1u so much...
the next day i went with mummy...
i was too enjoyed at the moment
i bought 2 clothes,1 jeans,1 pair of shoes.....
and..............................
the item i wanted the most.....













DKNY fresh blossom

i love it so much...
at last i bought it...
happy......:D


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8 months...
the journey full of tears,happiness and the sweetest memories which i have ever had...
i dunno whether am i the right person for u...
and i dunno what can i do with the present situation...
the only thing i can say is thank u for eveything...
i am still waiting...

holiday

my holiday is going to end in 2 weeks time

actually is......im goin to finish my work in 2 weeks

yuhoooo....

can take my salary and go for shopping...

talk a little bit about my working life...

the 1st day i went there,nothing much to do...

only clear Avent stock bcoz we need to return to the supplier...

damn tired to moved the big boxes...

the staffs over there are quite nice...

but some of them aren't that nice.....

they will ask u to do something which they can do it easily...

but they are lazy to do it themselve...

stupid...

this job actually required a lot of energy

especially when we need to moved the baby cot...

oh my god...

my hands can brake into 2...

but overall,it was good to work at there...

can see many cute babies...

she was my dear's classmate in english course

and she was sitting infront of me when we had combined class...

but i didnt know that she was pregnant...:D

her son damn cute....!!!

how good to have a kid like hers...

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by the way,im going for movie 2mrw...

finally can take a rest...

have to appreciate my holiday...

only 2 days...:(

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear...

i miss u...

downtown

i am freaking disappointed now!!!

i hate those things...

i am extremely down...

what time is it?

its party time...

my final exam for 1st sem is over...is over...

finally...

but the last paper was juz like shit...

everyone dont understand what the question about

and we were freaking cold in the hall bcoz it was raining..

i walked out of the hall in almost 1 hour++ bcoz it was cold and i dunno how to answer...

forget about it...

thats nonsense...

after the exam...

we decided to have our lunch at 1u...
we walked around for almost 1 hour and half...

i saw many clothes and shoes....

oh my oh my...

i cant tolerate...

i tried on one of the clothes..its 60% discount...

but they told me need member card or i have to buy a normal price item...

shit...

i wan that cloth...!!

arghhh...

then we went to Bar-B-Q Plaza for our lunch since everyone is hungry...

yuhoo...

we ordered 1 set of pork and 1 set of seafood...

after that,we started to enjoy our lunch...

it was delicious but the vegetable was too much...

almost like a small hill...:D

after lunch...

we took some photos in toilet...

we spent almost 20 mins in the toilet...

then we walked around again coz my friend ,Chin was searching for a shop...

about 3pm...

i left after i bought something...

today i am happy bcoz i could hang out with them...

i had a great time...

may & san are busy with their food

me & jia as well

chin,san & may

by the way,im going to have 1 month holiday...

and i went for interview yesterday...

i found a job nearby my college...

im goin to work with Chin...

1st job for me...

i made the decision is bcoz of i have nothing to do during holiday + i am alone...

its better to work and earn some money...

actually i afraid i cant afford it...

coz the working hour is quite long...

whatever,i will do it...

its only 1 month...

and i am disappointed bcoz of something........:(

darkness

again...
i woke up in a shock condition...
this is the 2nd time in this week...
it was more scary than nightmare...
can u understand the feeling?
can u imagine?
when u got whatever u want in the dream and u lose all of them when u woke up...?
i wanna cry...
i was searching for someone who can make me calm when i woke up,
but the house was empty...
only me...
i'm the only person at home...
and i should get up and make myself calm...
independent huh???hell...
i need someone to sympathy me !!!
i'm not a strong person as u thought...
a little thing which is related to u could made me stay awake for the whole night to think about it...
honestly...
the distance and time made me lost my way...
i dunno what to do...
except wait,asking u to come back...
i am tired....

now you're gone

never knew how much i loved you
never knew how much i need you
now you're gone i know how much i care
deep inside
you're all i wanted
all my nights i dream about you
tell me why
why did you leave me now
whenever you are near
my eyes will be in tears
i just can't hide the pain i've got in me
you and me used to be
all the things i've never wished
now you're gone part of me
goes with you eternally
can't you see i'm in love
i just wanna be with you
now you're gone
i'm all alone
u left me with a broken heart




I've finally found a lyric which could express my feeling

finally

finally,im free from assignments and presentations...
hurray....
my gosh...
my ITH presentation...
damn nervous...
my leg was shivering when i was doing my presentation...
its pretty obvious coz i was wearing high heels...
the formal clothes made me felt uncomfortable...
i prefer casual wear..:D
b4 my turn to present,my hand kept shivering and i kept drinking water...
nervous...
i was holding my necklace for a long time which i think it could make me calm...
i didnt know what i've done infront of the class...
i juz tried to finish it soon...
haha...
whatever...
its over...!!!
final exam is coming soon...
trying hard to reach my target...
what i've promised U...
after the exam...
what to do???
im gonna be idle for whole month...
i dont want......~~~

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finally
i could talk to u...
u will never know how do i feel when i cant talk to u...
in fact,time is passing too fast...
but i feel it is slow like snail...
haiz....
no comment...
i can do nothing except keep waiting...

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and rapid KL sucks...
schedule bus???
shit.....
i wasted almost 2 hours to wait for the bus...
damn it...
it never come...
til i went to the staff room and ask...
the staff told me they went for prayer...the bus will come at 3.30...
WTF...
i was waiting since 12.30pm and now only u tell me it will come at 3.30?
hell!!!
somemore i spent RM18 for taxi...
holy shit...

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missin u like crazy...

dream comes true

i feel u these days...
my hope is coming back...
i can feel the hope...
tell me my dream will comes true...
tell me everything will be fine...



i miss u more than word can say....




when will it comes true???

wondering

i try to read
i go to work
im laughing with my friends
but i cant stop to keep myself from thinking
i wonder how
i wonder why
i wonder where they are
the days we had ,the songs we sang together....

busy busy

we are in August now...
i dunno whether the time goes fast or slow..
for me,it was too slow...
argh...
only 2 weeks past...
6 weeks more....:((
i am busying for my assignments and presentations recently...
damn tired...
chien,i think u r right...
its better that u do everything rather than let ur partners do it...
i dun wanna take the risk...
i only trust myself...
im goin to be free after this week...
but final exam is coming...
i have no feeling about that...
i juz hope the time goes faster when i am alone here...
bcoz i hate this feeling...:(



sem break is coming.....hohoho...
my sis and me will be free at the same time...
hoho...ktv and shopping hour....
waiting for u sis...



i miss u...
waiting for u...

right here waiting

today is exactly 2 weeks...

i dunno why i couldnt breath properly during thursday...

i think is bcoz of the only reason which made me so down recently..

honestly,i miss u...

i told u not to tell me coz i can do nothing...

but i cant wait anymore...

i miss u,i miss u,i miss u...

my mind stopped working these days...

i cant think about other things when it was full of our memories...

i couldnt make it stop...

it comes up to my mind every moment without stopping...

im still waiting...

still wondering...

still praying...

still loving u...

waiting,and waiting...how long should i wait???

i always remember our promises,no matter when,where or what will happen next...

i hope u remember what u've promised me too...

time > killer

sigh...

almost 2 weeks i am alone here..

i still cant get used to the days without u..

the time goes too slow these day...

1 hour juz like a day...

i did everything to make myself not to think about it,

but i cant!!!

the image when u left was in my mind all the time..

i cant control myself..

i only have 1 question which i always wanted to ask u..

when will u come back?

i afraid i annoy u with this question

thats why i dont ask u everytime when we talked.

honestly,i already lose my confident..

u told me u will come back soon..

u gave me hope..

but i dont dare to believe it...

what if it takes 3 months,6 months or more?

i felt silly for myself when i cried after u left...

u used to wipe my tears whenever i cried..

but now...

i should do it myself...

i hate it too much...

i hate being alone and without u...

i dont want to be alone anymore...

what can i do????

i can do nothing...

when will be the end of this suffering days????

i wanna cry out loud but im out of energy!!!

i miss u

i miss u more than word can say...

2mrw will be exactly 6 months for our relation...
we went thru many problems...
many sweet days..

the only thing i can say is,
i am blessed bcoz i loved by you...
and i am proud bcoz i have u...

the fourth day

Another Day has Gone.... I'm still All Alone ...

How Could tis Be.... You're Not Here With Me....

today is the fourth day which u are not here..

how slow the time goes when u are not with me...

but i am satisfied bcoz i could talk to u finally...

i really dont want anything else...

i juz want u to come back..

i could sacrifies everything to make u come back to me...

i'm still wondering why it happened to us...

dear,

i know u have no choice too...

u forced to leave...

but please remember what u've promised me b4 u left...

i always told myself about ur promise when i was sad..

i dont forget my promise too...

i promised u to get the 1st place in class...

i will try my best...

i will do anything u asked me to do...

honestly,

i cant get used to the days without u...

it is too difficult...

i am waiting...

i am tolerating...

waiting for u to come back...

take care and be safe...

the teddy bears u gave me b4 u left...

they are waiting for their daddy to come back..

i am still counting...

p/s:my dear frens...thx for ur concern...

i am fine now...juz pray for me everything will be fine.

and again,sorry for made u being worried...

Gillian waiting for u....

the day u left

16.7...
i will never forget this day...
it was the day which u left...
dear,
y didnt u tell me u r goin to leave on that day???
y u lied to me and said i will see u on today???
do u know i was too worried yesterday and i was awake for the whole night to calling u???
i really have a lot of question that i wanna ask u...
i have alot of word that i wanna tell u...
i felt regret why i didnt talk to u b4 u left...
i felt regret why i dont tell u that i love you when u asked me to say...
u r juz like missing from my world...
i dont see u on messenger...
i dont have ur number which i can call u...
dear...
my mind is too sick now...
i didnt eat my dinner...
i didnt sleep...
but i stopped crying...
i juz wanna talk to u...
im waiting for u to on9...
im waiting for u to come back to me...
pls come back soon...
i'll be fine here...
u pls take care and make me sure that u will be back in 2 months...
pls....
i beg u....
i dont ask for anything else....
i juz want u to come back to me...
God Bless both of us...

refreshing

my dear frens...

dont worry about me ok?

im fine...

i juz cant tolerate with the assignments...

thanks ya...

and sorry for made u all being worried...

especially HOPE...

muackzzz...

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i was too busy with the assignments..

i haven take my nap for 3 days..

which is nescessary for me..:D

i used to drink a lot of coffee to make myself stay awake at night..

my god....

i dont like...

its too tiring...

i dont even eat properly these day..

i lose my appetite..

haizzz....

but i have no choice...

my only advice is:be smart in choosing your group member...

it may help u a lot...

but i am happy bcoz 1 of my group member,Ling...

she is so cute..haha..

we are in the same group for all of the assignments...

we have a lot of idea in common..

thats why we could finish everything in a short time...

she is a caring person too...

she share my work bcoz she feels like its unfair bcoz i should do most of the work..

thank you...

and my other classmates too...
we had a lot of fun in class these days...

muackzz...

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by the way,im not going to work on any assignment in the coming week...

i wanna rest and enjoy for a whole week to refresh my brain..

finally i can take my rest today...

i slept for almost 9 hours in the afternoon...

1pm-5pm and 7pm-10pm...

the most enjoyable thing>>>>sleep

and i should learn cooking...
everything that a girl should do...

but i believe that i can do it easily bcoz i have a large motivator...

pls remember everything i do,i do it for u...

no1 else...

tensi0n...!!!

oh my god...
my assignment deadline is near the corner...
but i did nothing with that...
i was full of tension these days...
everyday assignment...test...assignment...test...
finally,we finished 1 of the assignment yesterday...
4 persons in a group but only 3 persons worked on it...
i was crazy bcoz of the assignment...
i was busy like a crap!!!
but whatever we get,the others will get the same thing although they dont do anything...
what the hell is that..
isnt fair at all...
why should i share the thing when i did most of the thing???
arrrrgh....
forget about it....
it doesnt worth to make me angry...


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today i went to THE ONE CAFE with my classmates...
it is a cafe for hospitality student to practice how to serve a guest...
and guests can get a set lunch over there with RM12...
its nice right?
we went there at 12pm...
we were served by our seniors..
they are so professional...
and our attitude had changed when we talked in the cafe...
we became too polite...
we talked softly and eat slowly....
haha.....
we werent like that...
we used to laugh loudly and talk loudly...
we dont feel comfortable over there...
i ordered salmon as my main course...
not bad...
i was full although it was juz a little...
and we tried a glass of mocktail...
overall it was nice...the food,dessert...and drink...
juz imagine i should serve guests in the cafe after 3rd or 4th sem...
i dun dare to imagine what will happen...:D
my friend took some picture of the food but i didnt...
i will show u guys later...:)
but there is a influence after i came out from the cafe...
i went to toilet 3 times in 2 hours...:(
haha....


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if i could do something to make u happy...

i'll sacrifies everything to see ur smile...

if i could change ur mind...

i'll give u mine...

if i could make u forget the sad things...

i'll transfers it to my mind...

i'll prove that u made the right choice...

and u will never feel regret bcoz of ur choice...

whatever u r,u will still the 1st place in ur 'home'..

ur 'home' will only available for u...

Random post

weekend....T.T
next week gonna be the 2nd week of July..
the time goes damn fast..
and i juz like did nothing...
last week,we sat a test for English To Hospitality..
next week we hav a test again...
and assignment...
im gonna be busy in tis month..
huh~
And i was not in a good mood yesterday...
i dunno why i couldnt smile although i forced myself to smile..
moody~
for others, maybe they felt annoyed bcoz i showed my sour face without any reason..
hey....
it wasnt under my control...!!!
u think i like to show my sour face and spoil the atmosphere???
i wanted to pretend,but yesterday i dun even can pretend in front of my family...
but i dun need sympathy from u guys...
i could survive without that...
ur sympathy made me feel disgusting....
vomit~
i fallen in sick for almost 2 weeks...
coughing is annoying me...
my lung became weak bcoz of coughing...:(
everyday have to take tablets...
my god...!!!!
God bless me....
hope i will get better soon....


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Guys,
what do u think about ur future?
do u have any idea about ur future?
im afraid of future whenever i thought about it...
i couldnt see my future....
bcoz i believe,
the more u deserve,the more u feel disappointed...
its good to imagine a good future....
but what if it dont comes true?
whatever....
i juz want to do my best in every part...
and appreciate whatever i hav now...
be happy,enjoy my life and be the best for u...
Good luck guys....




_Gillian_

outing to 1U

last saturday,

i saw Annie's message when i woke up from my nap..

she asked me whether free on sunday to go out with her...

oh my god...

yea...

of course...

i was too free..

almost 2 months i didnt got out of home during weekend..

so,i juz decided to accompany Annie to buy some stuff...

at first,we decided to go Times Square...

coz i wanna eat 'chesse baked rice' at Kim Gary..

but when i tell mummy tat im gonna to KL,

mummy doesnt allow me to go bcoz of H1N1..

then,we changed our plan to 1U...

1U???

i went there every week...

2 days in a week..

bcoz my college nearby the shopping mall..

i think i could recognize all the shop without my eyes open..

haha..XD

but nvm...

as long as no need to stay at home...

i met Annie in front of cinema..

then,we started to shop...

we went to a bag shop...

coz Annie wanna buy a bag..

we dunno which 1 to choose...

and we asked the staff to take many sample for us to try..

haha...

at last,Annie bought a bag which has some picture on it..

after that,we juz walked around the mall...

1pm...

what time is it?????

lunch time la...

we went to Carls Jr...

haha...

which i juz went last friday...

we talked alot over there..

gossip gossip...

its a long time that we haven talk for so long...

i felt happy to talk with u...

and HOPE...

coz only HOPE can understand each other...

enjoying my burger...^^

we took 'da tou tie' too...:)

about 4pm...

mummy came to pick us up...

after sent Annie go home..

we went home too...

6 something..

daddy said wanna go for dinner with my relatives...

then we get ready and wait for them...

suddenly my bro asked me to go to field with him...

coz he wanna take some picture...

crazy me...

tats all about my day....

but honestly i was not in a good mood...

bcoz of something...

but its ok...

dont spoil the day bcoz of me...

miss u....~

p/s:Annie...take care when u go to Sg...

find me whenever u miss me ya~

I'm sick

oww....

im sick...

today is the 4th day...

flu,cough...

fortunately sore throat is gone...

i hate falling in sick...

i can do nothing...

no cold drinks...

no fried food...

only bread and vegetables...:(

i juz felt weak..

and sleepy...

but yesterday..

i ate something really look like 'food'..

haha

when i was sitting beside the swimming pool and talked to my dear...

suddenly i juz suggest to eat a big burger at Carls Jr...

i need a big burger...

i was going to vomit bcoz i juz ate bread few days ago...

tasteless...

yiak~

then i wait for my dear to get ready...

we walked to 1U...

we straight away went to the restaurant...

oh my god...

it was amazing...

i was enjoying my burger too much...

yummy...:P

we spent a good time at there...

actually whenever i am with u...

its a good time for me..:D

i am satisfied...

haiz...

today is saturday..

weekend again...

boring.....:(

almost 2 months tat i haven go out of home on weekend...

my gosh...

but 2mrw im goin to 1U with annie...

yeappi...

can i ask the time to slow down??

it past too fast...

i noe we should move on...

but i dun even have time to appreciate it...

it juz past and gone....

actually am i a good person?

y i always made the ppl around me sad?!

i didnt want to...

but i always did...

shit me...

i think we should learn to let go in some particular thing....

giving up doesnt always means u r weak,it shows tat u r strong enough to let it go...

thank you for everything...

complicated but easy life???

hey guys..

im goin to update my blog again...

dunno y these day i dun have any special thing to write about...

my life just goes 'smooth',plain....
haha....

myself dunno whether is good or bad...
good is bcoz of everything goes smooth..
and bad is bcoz of lack of excitement la...
*sigh...
and our class...

juz like tat lo...
nothing special..
next week is goin to be the 7th week for my class...
u c how fast the time past?!
assignment...
i dont even finish 1 of them..:(
forget about it...:p

lets talk about our trip to Beryl Chocolate Factory...

we arrived at college at 8.45....

i was the earliest bird...

we supposed to be there at most 8.50

but u know la....

malaysia time always 10 mins delay....

then we depart at 9++

our class has 17 ppl..

but the van only can fit 15 ppl...

pity 2 of them hav to sit with the students from another course

okay...

we started our journey...

i went there b4 when i was in high school..

i remembered it only took 30 mins to reach there...

but we were sitting in the van for 1 hour...

stopped for more than 5 times at the road side...

finally we got a news....

we lost....!!!!

how fuuny was it...

after 1 hour sitting in the van...
finally we reached at the factory...
my bum was goin to break...
1st,they showed us a video about the process of making the chocolate...
then show us the machines and some collection from another countries...
wahahaha....
is time for us to buy chocolate...!!!
i juz cant control myself when i walked into the shop....
i was the only 1 who holding a basket to put all my chocolate...
u guess how much did i paid for it???
erm....
RM73....
its ordinary la....
not too much...
then we went to The Mines for our lunch....
i went there after aged...
i almost cant recognize the place...
we only have 1 hour++ to take our lunch...
but we took almost 30mins to decide what to eat...
and at last...
we chosen a restaurant which has promotion for set lunch...
after our lunch..
went back to college...
we were tired although we dun hav any class..
after i got down fron the van,
i ran to catch a taxi....
bcoz my chocolate was goin to melt....
haha..:p
fortunately...
they r survive...
bcoz i put it into freezer since i got home...
so,it was my day to chocolate factory...
not bad...

me & Kesha

we took it during lunch...^^

i'm tagged....

yesterday i was chatting with Annie...
and she told me to read her blog after she inform me..
i thought what is she going to tell me...
now i got it...
i am tagged....
here is my answer..




1. What is your name : Gillian
2. A four Letter Word : Good
3. A boy's Name : Gary
4. A girl's Name : Georgina(haha…u know where I got tis name la…)
5. An occupation : Geologist
6. A color : Gray
7. Something you'll wear : Giordano shirts
9. A food : Garlic
10. Something found in the bathroom: Green colour towel
11. A place : Germany
12. A reason for being late: Get drunk last night
13. Something you'd shout : Go to hell…(although my favourite is ‘shit’..:p…)
14. A movie title: Ghost..(a romantic movie)
15. Something you drink: Green Tea
16. A musical group : Green Day
17. An animal : Goat
18. A street name : Golden Lane (in London)
19. A type of car : GMC
20. The title of a song : Give you hell….




i spent almost 30 mins to finish it....
it was too difficult...
fortunately i have Google...
haha....

confusing

time goes fly..
June has started..
and my class has started 1 month ago...
wat did i learned?
actually i dunno..
the lesson was easy but when u wanna remember it,
it was too difficult..
phase test is goin to start in 1 week..
but i noe i can do it..:p
and our course doesnt like a main course..
we have trip every week..
we r goin to Beryl Chocolate Factory next thursday..
but our Genting trip has canceled..
bcoz the head of department doesnt allow us to go for fun..
except we go for education purpose...
other than that,my time table is juz like shit...
we should stay until 5pm..
but b4 our class we have 3 hours break...
my gosh..
i can take my nap for 3 hours..
but i can do nothing in the college...
juz day dreaming...
miss someone..
and kill myself to pass the time...:((
we were look like zombie 2 days ago..
our class started at 9 but finished at 5..
everyone was goin to faint..
and i couldnt get anything from the lecturer bcoz my brain was sleeping
haha..
and we ditch our class on friday..
damn boring..
and i ditch the 2nd class too..
the lecturer was searching for me.
whatever,i felt worthful to ditch the class..
its juz a presentation exercise..
and most important its bcoz of u..





am i made u too important for myself??
bcoz i saw someone's PM wrote:is not that ur partner doesnt care about u,is u made them too important for urself...
i think so..
but i think tis is the way to love someone..
love is always blind..
u could do whatever to make them happy..
u r sad when they r sad..
bcoz everything is not only for urself..
u involved in their problem too..
everything should be equal...
now i realized y u always said everything should be equal..
if one of us pay less attention..
everything will change..
maybe i am selfish..
in my point of view,sometimes is neccessary to be selfish..
bcoz if u dont think for urself..
no1 is goin to think about u..
so,whatever i have i want it all...
i dont like to share with others..
but of course i will learn to be understanding..
what i promised..



weekend again...
i wanna watch 'night at the musium 2' and 'the brother's bloom'..
i watched 'terminator salvation' with my family last week.
the movie was nice but a little confuse
now i should watch 1-3 episode again to understand the story..:(
erm...
goin to off now..
exciting bcoz of the trip..
wait for my chocolate ya~
bye..

new life for us

tis week is the 3rd week i started my main course...
i am satisfied with my life,my class,my classmates,everything i has now...
nowadays,the way of teaching is totally different from high school..
everything need efficiency..
we need to write our own notes..
bcoz the lecturers r not goin to write for us..
i am addicted to 1 of my lecturer...
she is so so so cute..
hehe..
i love her class...
whenever i feel down..
i will become refresh n happy after her class..
the way she teach is different...
we had a lot of fun but we could learned sumthing..
i talked a lot in her class...
n she is the only lecturer who i will tell her about my opinion...
i changed to another person when i was in her class.



and these day,
i miss my life in high school..
we had a lot of fun when we were in high school...
we always hang out,had our lunch together..
we used to make a lot of noise in class..
sleep in class..
didnt finish the homework..
made our teacher angry..
although we were naughty..
but we were happy..
n every weekend went for softball training...
batting...
running around the field...
and kidding each other..
our life was full with laugh..and no pressure..
when SPM was near to the corner,
we organized a study group n studied together..
but we were talking n joking over there...



but now..
everyone of us is busy with our new life..
some of them stay nearby the college..
and some of them left malaysia..
we only can c each other after a long time...
anyway,i wish all of them will success in their new life...
and dun forget me n our memories..
thanks guys...