P(L)AIN

Finally...its all over !

no more phase test...

u drive me crazy phase tests !!!

Hmm....

but still i got good return :)

out of my expectation

I can handle all these with my eyes close...

piece of cake.

BUT

when it comes to something else,

I could admit that I am the stupidest person in the whole entire world.

yes I am.

I'm totally lost :(

I dunno what am I doing

I dunno what do I want

I dunno where am I standing

I dunno who I am

I dunno anything !

to be honest, that's so unfair

but I have nothing to blame

I refused other options to put myself in this situation.

How good I am :/

I dunno how things will turns out at the end

I only can say this is not an easy game to play

lots to consider and the effect is huge

I myself knew that it won't work out at the end

I just dunno what am I insisting on

I can see the day I ask for quit

coz that's so difficult

no one can stand for long in this situation when you dunno what position are you in

pretending , avoid from guess , acting.

that's what we are doing

somehow that's not what I wanted.

I am just a normal girl who wants things girls want.

Please don't overestimate me

Even i could confused with happiness

Laugh = happy ?

I hope so

then at least I am

arghhhhh.....!!!

WHY ME?!

GOD ! u gotta be kidding me !

that's not fun !

hell ya !

please bring me something new

something normal !!!

still i am insisting

Slope

Totally broke down

Letting go or keep living in complication

Shittt !

Revolution

Its been months I didn't sign up for my blog.

Things changed, changed dramatically.

I am now back to single.

Honestly, I didn't expect this day to come that fast.

I was in shock with a broken heart :(

I dunno where to begin but yes , everything has come to the end.

A new chapter has just started.

Frankly speaking, it wouldn't be so easy without 'you'.

I dunno whether I have made a right decision to started all these but I'm kinda addicted with it.

It wasn't easy at all for sure.

When the time possession is taking control of me.

I never thought that I will be in this kind of situation,

which I will never allow myself to involved before I did.

Maybe is the facts or things I've been thru.

I really don't mind to bet on this.

Is just either win or lose.

Though 99% of it will be on lose :p

Against 'you', I never ask for more.

Cuz I know I dont have such right .

And I dont want to cross the line or else, I want it be totally mine.

Sorry did hurt me, even worse than what I saw with my eyes.

It doesnt mean it could heal the wound.

In fact, I really care .

But still, I won't let 'you' read my mind.

Cuz I dont wanna put 'you' in a difficult situation.

Anyway,thanks for everything.

Mis3rable

Im losing it...

really losing it

why did I let it started at the beginning?!

I should have know that it will be torturing myself one day

But...

I only can apologize to myself coz I am hurting myself

I really fall for it

I wish it could be all mine but

I realised it wont be at the beginning

Still, I wish

I wish I could force myself to quit!

Random~

5 months later finally i feel like update my blog

nothing much happened

went to internship for 3 months in The Royale Bintang Hotel

ishhh...

exhausted training

but luckily i could get over it...

then here come the new semester

4 subjects including financial management 2!!!

dont feel like study and focus this semester

dunno whats wrong

Perhaps, something made me lose my concentration.

Bunny Year...

most boring new year ever

nothing can do except gambling and gambling and gambling

Addicted to Purest of Pain these days.....

cant stop listen to it...

oh God...

please put me out of my misery

I drive myself crazy:(

Alternatives

Am i thinking too much???

i am exhausted!!!

i dunno why u seem to be like a stranger to me sometimes

but i just know that i cant let go

i have no other choices

wish u could understand...

i need P-R-I-V-A-C-Y!!!!

Chinese New Year...wuhoo~

finally chinese new year break past...
nothing special for me during cny...
but its just for me to rest...
the day before cny,went to grandma's hse for reunion dinner...
and of course angpao la...:D
in the middle of the night,prepared for prayer...
fireworks started to play and all of us was standing in front of the house to enjoy the fireworks...
2am we went back home and started to prepare for welcoming 'cai shen'...
went to bed at 3.30am after finished all the works...

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first day of cny=valentine's day
same routine like every year we did...
same places,same activities...
but had a very lonely valentine.
fortunately he came online at the night to talk to me...

we were doing the same thing til the 6th day...
gamble,eat,drink,visiting relatives....
til the 7th day,went to my uncle's hse in Desapark City...
drank with my aunty sice she kept nagging that no1 accompany her to drink.
i drank almost 3 glass of Cordon Bleu...
its not that bad actually but i dont like to drink alcohol...
reached home at 2am that day

and i am wondering why i didnt even feel dizzy after drinking the 3 glasses of alcohol...


the next day,went to my dad friend's hse...
of course the adults were gamble over there...
and my bro was the only half adult who gamble with them...:D
one of the uncle is so damn funny,
i cant stop laughing when he started to talk..
actually......he never stop talking for a min...
then we went for dinner nearby ss2...
the dinner cost 2000++
but nothing special,for me it doesnt worth this price...
after dinner,went to grandma's hse again for prayer...
which is very important prayer for Hokkien...
the fireworks was everywhere...it was like a war...
but it was beautiful...

college reopen day....
ponteng!!!
bcoz last night went to bed very late...
luckily i didnt go to college bcoz i heard that the classes was cancelled...
aduii~
everytime cancel class.....
they cancel class more than i ponteng class....
haiz...

but today everything become normal again...

im waiting for July......
cant wait for him to come back...