厌

不喜欢 突冷突热

不喜欢 突然的开心 然后打回原形

不喜欢 看到了希望 结果得到的是失望

不喜欢 你答应了 结果完全不记得

不喜欢 觉得我们近了 然后又退了一大步

觉得自己可有可无

其实自己并没有那么重要

明明很痛 却告诉自己要相信

我希望你不会 ， 可是如果你有一天遇到了这样的情形

你会知道 那种用口讲不出的痛

p/s : ILY

Imma one and only

Don't really know what can describe my mood

Sad ? no. Tired ? no. Happy ? no.

Listen to my lil bro bout his problems

Kind of frustrated

Don't know what can I help

But his problem in fact made me linked to my own problem

Sorry that I can't be carefree

Sorry that I just can't stop being care

Sorry that I just can't stop loving

Sorry that I didn't mean to put you in this situation

Being nice and patience was to avoid making situation worse

Wasn't because I can do it

I do care

So what , does it mean things can change to what I want

Seriously don't know what's going on actually

Feels like gonna left out anytime any moment :(

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I miss you today

I miss you my dearest

I miss spending 24 hours with you

I hope you are alright out there with your new friends

You'll be in my heart always

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uoy evol yllaer I taht uoy llet annaw tsuj

ti si hcum woh wonk t'nod tsuj uoy

neppah ot elcarim rof gnitiaw llits m'I taht wonk t'nod

p/s : ILY

EmpTy

公平

光明 正大

都跟我 扯不上关系

V0yagE

It's been 8 months after all

Things happened without notice sometimes

Been thru a lot few weeks back

A lot which I wasn't even ready to deal with it

But one thing I knew I am regret

But it won't come back anymore

Everyday falling deeper than yesterday

Should it be that way?

Still , lots of question mark

No secure at all , honestly

Neither I'm tolerant or generous

I just don't wanna mess this thing out

No girls like to be like that

But ILY enough for me to put things aside and keep on in this

'unclear' situation

Unfair . But what ?

I don't know

I only know what I wanted so far is just a simple thing

which you couldn't do it

Your promises was sweet enough though

But it brings huge disappointment when you actually don't remember

and I'm still believe in it

p/s : ILY <3

Endless Trap

越 喜欢 想要的会更多

只是 并没有权利 更没有立场

我 很不平衡

P(L)AIN

Finally...its all over !

no more phase test...

u drive me crazy phase tests !!!

Hmm....

but still i got good return :)

out of my expectation

I can handle all these with my eyes close...

piece of cake.

BUT

when it comes to something else,

I could admit that I am the stupidest person in the whole entire world.

yes I am.

I'm totally lost :(

I dunno what am I doing

I dunno what do I want

I dunno where am I standing

I dunno who I am

I dunno anything !

to be honest, that's so unfair

but I have nothing to blame

I refused other options to put myself in this situation.

How good I am :/

I dunno how things will turns out at the end

I only can say this is not an easy game to play

lots to consider and the effect is huge

I myself knew that it won't work out at the end

I just dunno what am I insisting on

I can see the day I ask for quit

coz that's so difficult

no one can stand for long in this situation when you dunno what position are you in

pretending , avoid from guess , acting.

that's what we are doing

somehow that's not what I wanted.

I am just a normal girl who wants things girls want.

Please don't overestimate me

Even i could confused with happiness

Laugh = happy ?

I hope so

then at least I am

arghhhhh.....!!!

WHY ME?!

GOD ! u gotta be kidding me !

that's not fun !

hell ya !

please bring me something new

something normal !!!

still i am insisting

Slope

Totally broke down

Letting go or keep living in complication

Shittt !

Revolution

Its been months I didn't sign up for my blog.

Things changed, changed dramatically.

I am now back to single.

Honestly, I didn't expect this day to come that fast.

I was in shock with a broken heart :(

I dunno where to begin but yes , everything has come to the end.

A new chapter has just started.

Frankly speaking, it wouldn't be so easy without 'you'.

I dunno whether I have made a right decision to started all these but I'm kinda addicted with it.

It wasn't easy at all for sure.

When the time possession is taking control of me.

I never thought that I will be in this kind of situation,

which I will never allow myself to involved before I did.

Maybe is the facts or things I've been thru.

I really don't mind to bet on this.

Is just either win or lose.

Though 99% of it will be on lose :p

Against 'you', I never ask for more.

Cuz I know I dont have such right .

And I dont want to cross the line or else, I want it be totally mine.

Sorry did hurt me, even worse than what I saw with my eyes.

It doesnt mean it could heal the wound.

In fact, I really care .

But still, I won't let 'you' read my mind.

Cuz I dont wanna put 'you' in a difficult situation.

Anyway,thanks for everything.

Mis3rable

Im losing it...

really losing it

why did I let it started at the beginning?!

I should have know that it will be torturing myself one day

But...

I only can apologize to myself coz I am hurting myself

I really fall for it

I wish it could be all mine but

I realised it wont be at the beginning

Still, I wish

I wish I could force myself to quit!

Random~

5 months later finally i feel like update my blog

nothing much happened

went to internship for 3 months in The Royale Bintang Hotel

ishhh...

exhausted training

but luckily i could get over it...

then here come the new semester

4 subjects including financial management 2!!!

dont feel like study and focus this semester

dunno whats wrong

Perhaps, something made me lose my concentration.

Bunny Year...

most boring new year ever

nothing can do except gambling and gambling and gambling

Addicted to Purest of Pain these days.....

cant stop listen to it...

oh God...

please put me out of my misery

I drive myself crazy:(